Showing posts with label layan hati. Show all posts
Showing posts with label layan hati. Show all posts

Sunday, July 24, 2011

takdir :)



"Cinta terakhir"

Kau cinta pertama ku
Kau cinta terakhir ku
Tiada apa yang bisa
Menafikan kasih kita

Kau ayu di mata ku
Satu antara seribu
Tiada tara di dunia

Mungkin kan terputus di tengah jalan
Mungkin kan terlerai tanpa ikatan
Usah ragu dengan takdir

Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan
Berakhirnya cerita percintaan
Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan



p/s:
Selamat tinggal. 
Terbanglah bebas meninggalkan penjara sangkar. :)




Wednesday, April 6, 2011

hatiku berkata-kata

*post ini adalah personal*

tadi ku terjaga. mimpi hantu. masa tu tgh bermain dgn kawan2. even time maghrib pun tak berhenti. moralnya: time maghrib berhenti main dan masuk rumah. tp elok jugak terjaga. terlelap sblm isyak. (-.-").......

sebelum terlelap ku ternampak photos terbaru dia. naik dekat homepage facebook. tak tau la nape tangan nie gatal pegi click. tgk la dari kepala album sampai kaki album photo tu. masa tgk gambar dia terkeluar pulak lagu gio "bila cinta" dari laptop member roomate. menangis hati! dah la kantoi dgn roomate tgk gambar dia. haih.. segan u olls.. feeling2 tgk gambar, mmg tak mcm zafirah. come on.. layan lagu jiwang karat mmg dorg tau, tapi bab2 ni dorg belum tau lagi.. tak pe lah. friends, see the other side of me.. the fragile inside..

lama ku tgk gambar dia, and i wonder.. did i have ever cross the person's mind like the person crossed mine..? i'm curious.. curiosity kills the cat. and it does killing me slowly inside.. dia nampak makin gembira, dengan orang baru. alhamdulillah.. its not that i miss the person, the person is still a friend and will remain as the same. nothing's gonna change that. *chuckle* sayang. sbb we used to be best buddy.

ku tak rindu dia sebagai diri dia yg sekarang. sbb tempat dia dah berubah, tiada lagi dihati, maaf. lama sgt dah perkara berlalu. bertahun tahun. tp kadang2 dia menjenguk ke fikiran. serabut. ku rindu dia yg dulu. i miss the feeling of 'us'. but when i miss 'us', all the pain is brought back. i handle the pain once. but the scars is still remain till now. DAMN right? yeah. jgn bagitau ala2 'bunga bukan sekuntum'. mmg. tapi hati ku satu je. dia curi dulu tak pulang2. entah balai polis mana mau cari. tak ingat pulak ada buat report atau tak. entah2 dah kene jual dekat thailand. *sigh*

pelik tiba2 feeling datang camgini. nyesal tak kira hari kat calender. but still, i blame the hormone!
gudnyte.. tomorrow, be nice please..

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

25 things you should know about me

 "Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts or goals about you. In the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tags you. If I tag you, it’s because I want to know you more." 

I actually didn't get the tagged from the person himself but he wrote there feel free to do this tagged. So as i have a lot of time to waste, i do it. Hehe..
tagged from; Abang Yan

(1) I have adopted family. Along, angah, achik, ucu, uncle & aunty. I’m the alang in this family. I love them and we always go out together when semester break comes. But never went out in complete members. Always missing one or two.

(2) I don’t  like spicy food.
(3) I wear sweater when I go to sleep. Because my lungs cannot bear exposing to coldness for a long time.

(4) I feel extremely uncomfortable with ‘melekit’ or wet tables in restaurant. So I really need tissues to be on the table. 

(5) I am very selective when shopping. Well, u can say I’m very fussy when it comes to shopping. It took me 2-3 hours just to buy a cloth. So I only bring my shopping partners when I want to shop. Only they can keep up with me.

(6) I do forgive, but I don’t forget. Sometimes I tend to hold grudge. But I try hard not to. Just that, I don’t forget. Never!

(7) I have some kind of boyish attitude. I used to be tomboy when I was little. Short hair, playing cars & wars…stuffs like that. Ganas la dlm erti kata lain. (-.-‘)
  
(8) I like editing pictures. And playing with graphic somehow attracts me.


(9) it takes time for me to make friends. Coz I’m no good in communicating with people whom I don’t know. (I’m trying to improve on that)


(10) tell me your story, I’ll sit and listen coz I’m pretty good listener.  :)


(11) Sometimes I have a bipolar mood. One minute I can be very down and I can cheer myself in the next minute. I don’t know if that what they call optimistic. If so, that’s what I am.


(12) Seriously, touch screen just annoyed me. It is like i'm losing my sense of touch. 


(13) Red will always be my favourite colour. It can't be helped, red is so eye catching.


(14) Vegetable is a must in my meal. Carrots are the best. Selalu je kutip carrot dlm sayur bila beli makanan kat kafe ipba. Kesian org lain kene menunggu nak amik sayur. Hehehhe.. sorry.. :P


(15) Errm.. I kind of…like… to see guys doing… Mohawk hairstyle.. I mean rambut pacak tengah like ultraman, u know what I’m saying... right? Hehe..


(16) If I cannot sleep, I listen to songs with my eyes shut so that I can sleep.. just assume that the songs are like my lullaby..


(17) When I have girls’ day out, it is strictly to girls only. We have liey, mbing, gha, Q, hunny, leeyamoi, faezah, & me. Geng2 lepak MA. Hehehe..


(18) I only started wearing scarf after I had my spm examination. :)


(19) I wear my watch on my right hand. And I wear my belt from right to left which means the buckle is on the right side. Kalau kawin nak duduk belah kanan jugak boleh? Hahaha.. Just kidding. LOL. 


(20) I fold my clothes with the printed design inside. I mean..saya lipat baju terbalik. Corak di dalam bukan diluar. 
(21) I always wanted to try challenging sports like bungee jumping (would be better if jump from a helicopter), parachuting (jumping from the sky with parachute) etc..

(22) Addicted to diet! I’ve tried Atkins diet, low-carbohydrate diet & vegan diet. The only one that totally works is avoid the consumption of white rice & cheese. [I want to lose weight!]

(23) When I was in form 5, I got hip dislocated because of my own dumbness.

(24) I used to have 4 indoors cats. All mixed Persians type. I miss them so much! Well, basically I miss the feeling of having cats at my home.  :(

(25) I'm tired of thinking so I just say that I love nasi goreng ayam amjal + teh O ais limau!
.The end.

 I don't know who to tag to.. but i would love to know 25 things about; 
1. Syazwan Shahdan (achik)
2. Eliya amoi (ucu)
3. Iszee feekri (uncle) [tak tau la dia perasan ke tak]
4. Rafiqa nabeela (aunty)
5. Qeyla 

and readers, feel free to do this tag. & let me know too so that i can know things about u. :)


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

listen if you don't mind...

I used to have one heart which i can say as cold as a stone..
The mood of the environment doesn't affect me at all..
as long as i'm satisfied with my life..
i used to hold onto my principle;
crying means you are WEAK!
it worst if it witnesses by others..

but..,
recently i often heard news about death, break-up, etc..
-if i used to be the one years back then,...
i wouldn't even mind as long as it has nothing to do with me..
i just felt sorry for them & nothing more than that..
but..,
i'm changing to a person i barely knew myself..
such news as stated, of course made me felt sorry..
and mix with grief.. EXTRA grief..
I'm becoming more SENSITIVE nowadays..
i believe hormones got something to do with this..

i remembered when i happened to read
about the death of my senior's father..
i kept on thinking how sad it was if i were him..
pity+sorry+sad were blended altogether..
and visiting his mum, i can see the sadness, sorrow, grief through her face..
i remembered when i happened to read (spread through facebook)
about the death of my college mate's girlfriend..
this one...i know its real tough for him to lose his love one..
even with only break-up (alive) can bring u in deep sadness..
but..
to be separated by death...
hanya ALLAH sahaja tau how the guy feel.. Moga dia redha..
i read his status on fb & i also read his late girlfriend..
and..
can u imagine when u miss someone so much and u post it to his/her fb
and u know he/she will not be able to reply back because...
he/she is not in this world anymore..
u knew it and yet u can't resist the pain of missing someone..
it was so hard not to cry..
i cried and jajan saw it..
-sorry jajan.. causing u to see the ugly side of me..
instead of kept in silence, she said to me...
"xpe.. awk menangis je.. ambik masa luahkan perasaan sedih tu..."
thanks jajan.. :)

i wish i can control this sensitive thing because its hard to deal with.. its negative..
Al-fatihah untuk arwah-arwah..
Semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat & diletakkan bersama orang yang beriman..
amin...

Friday, August 20, 2010

No eternity in this world

Assalamualaikum..

Recently there's a notice about our residential block. It stated that the whole block from block 1 to 9 must be emptied by next year because they want to reshuffle the rooms. Since then, I'm distracted by this news. Well, obviously I do not agree with this. I love my current house! But who am i to object? *sigh*

Each day i woke up, usually the first thing i will see is the sky. Then after few milliseconds my eyes got wider, the greeny scenery outside my room from eltc area will be seen. My bed is on the top. Yup its a bunk. Once my '1-week-senior' in UiTM melaka said "Kalau ada senior yg nak katil bawah, mengalah je la. Sbb biasanya senior suka katil bawah. Kalau yg suka katil atas tu....mungkin dia pelik sikit la."

macam haram. tell you what, i love bed on the top. ha, mau kata apa? pelik? boo! Macam king duk kat atas tempat tinggi2 melangit lagi ada la. wah! hidung tinggi seinci. wahaha. :P

Ok serius. I love my room, love the house, although it is not like 5 stars hotel but i consider it enough to spend time 'bergolek-golek', 'bermalas-malasan' after class. i hate it when we fall in love with something/someone, we eventually have to let it go whether with enforcement or on our own will. For example, there's no way you can wear your standart 1 shirt when u are in form1 no matter how much u love it. Gila bantut. Love a person & prepare to say goodbye. One day he/she will leave u whether he/she walks away, or taken by Allah since God loves he/she more than u do.

p/s: no eternity makes me afraid to love anything in this world. But not to fall in love with anything is much more like a robot. No heart, empty.... But the only thing that last forever is Allah & akhirat. Dunia hanyalah satu persinggahan. :)

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