5 minutes

it hurts when u can't help and felt helpless..

it hurts when u just can sit and wait..

because waiting...is killing me..

but i can't do anything..

except for praying to Allah the Almighty..

I pray that Allah

will grant him forgiveness his sins..

and will give him the strength he needed..

especially at this time the most..

I pray that Allah

will simplify his affairs..

and will not burden him with what he can't catch..

May Allah always be by his side..

May Allah always look after him..

Protecting him, guiding him no matter what..

"Ya Allah, ya Rahman, ya Rahim.. bantulah menyembuhkan hambamu itu ya Allah..

kerana dengan hanya izin Mu sahaja yang boleh menyembuhkan dia.."

amin..

listen if you don't mind...

I used to have one heart which i can say as cold as a stone..
The mood of the environment doesn't affect me at all..
as long as i'm satisfied with my life..
i used to hold onto my principle;
crying means you are WEAK!
it worst if it witnesses by others..

but..,
recently i often heard news about death, break-up, etc..
-if i used to be the one years back then,...
i wouldn't even mind as long as it has nothing to do with me..
i just felt sorry for them & nothing more than that..
but..,
i'm changing to a person i barely knew myself..
such news as stated, of course made me felt sorry..
and mix with grief.. EXTRA grief..
I'm becoming more SENSITIVE nowadays..
i believe hormones got something to do with this..

i remembered when i happened to read
about the death of my senior's father..
i kept on thinking how sad it was if i were him..
pity+sorry+sad were blended altogether..

and visiting his mum, i can see the sadness, sorrow, grief through her face..

i remembered when i happened to read (spread through facebook)
about the death of my college mate's girlfriend..
this one...i know its real tough for him to lose his love one..
even with only break-up (alive) can bring u in deep sadness..
but..
to be separated by death...
hanya ALLAH sahaja tau how the guy feel.. Moga dia redha..
i read his status on fb & i also read his late girlfriend..
and..
can u imagine when u miss someone so much and u post it to his/her fb
and u know he/she will not be able to reply back because...
he/she is not in this world anymore..
u knew it and yet u can't resist the pain of missing someone..
it was so hard not to cry..
i cried and jajan saw it..
-sorry jajan.. causing u to see the ugly side of me..
instead of kept in silence, she said to me...
"xpe.. awk menangis je.. ambik masa luahkan perasaan sedih tu..."
thanks jajan.. :)

i wish i can control this sensitive thing because its hard to deal with.. its negative..

Al-fatihah untuk arwah-arwah..

Semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat & diletakkan bersama orang yang beriman..

amin...

terima kasih Hunny Bee

First time assignment siap awal! :D

Selalunya esok hantar, malam nie baru gedik2 nak wat. Huhu.

Satu perubahan! Ooyeah! Huhu.

So sbb terlebih masa free, taram sekali dua post satu mlm.

(padahal assignment lain duk beratur lagi ni)

Sangat over. (-,-)

Time tgh ghairah menulis blog, dgr bunyi moto kat bawah blok.

ku pikirkan arie bersama motor beliau pegi ke blok 4, jadi ku intai dari balkoni.

seperti kata2 "ingatkan panas sampai ke petang, rupanya hujan ditengah hari"

rata2 sangkaan ku meleset jadi ku masuk balik nak sambung tulis blog.

tetibe je terasa bagai tertusuk paku di kaki. eh?

celah mana pulak leh ada paku.?

tengok2 si hunny bee sdg memberi ciuman hangat kat kaki.

yezza~ mmg terbaik! menyengat gituh~

Dalam kepanikan yang melampau, terhencut2 pegi bilik member

tanya dorg nak wat apa.

mana la taw sengatan leh bwk mati ke.?

tataw la celah mana leh datang idea tu. lalala~

nie sume pengaruh pengalaman wawa kene patuk ular.

fobia dengar cite dia. (-.-)

time kasih ye encik lebah. tak sangka kakiku ini lebih manis dari madu.

Sebagai hadiah terimalah jentikan kasih sayang dariku.

akibatnya dia terkejut, sakit jantung lalu mati.

Rest in peace yea. amin~

Sekian.

Assignment Konvoi Raya

PENGHARGAAN
Assalamualaikum. TQ byk2 diucapkan kpd makhluk2 yg mengikuti konvoi hari raya pada 16 september 2010 termsk la semut2 dan kuman2. terima kasih kpd yg bagi mkn, bukan sahaja rasa sgt berbesar hati malah rasa mcm dah terbesar sket dri segi size. lalala~ (sila rujuk lampiran utk senarai penghargaan)

1.0 PENGENALAN
Pabila tiba suatu ketika yg bosan, maka mulalah beliau ini ber'blog walking'. Eliya, iszee, rafiqa & qeyla semua pakat tulis pasal konvoi raya aritu. Wah! pakatan sejagat korg ek. Disebabkan beliau juga tamo ketinggalan, so nak amik port tulis jugak! hee~

2.0 LATAR BELAKANG
dikala org meraikan hari sempena pertubuhan malaysia, kami menyibukkan diri dgn konvoi. pada mulanya cadang 3 bijik kereta shja. tup tup hambik ko!, 5 bijik sekali bertempur. inilah konvoi terbesar dlm sejarah hidup beliau. bermula dari serendah ke rawang dan akhirnya ke sekitar sg buloh. ahli2 konvoi poyo poyo raya adalah along, achik, ucu, uncle, aunty rafiqa, epul, ehsan, cha'a, kambing, liey, Q, acim, paiz, azim & ella. (semua bukan nama sebenar).

3.0 KONVOI RAYA
malas nak tulis panjang2. jadi kita tgk pilihan dialog2 yg diutarakan.

3.1 kata aunty rafiqa
'mengandung tahi'. eh! mcm censored pulak bunyi. lalala~ mana tak nyer. setiap rumah kami dihidangkan bak raja yg tiada takhta. dari nasi lemak + laksa, kuehtiaw goreng + kfc + mihun goreng + mee goreng + nasi ayam, kek coklat + kuehtiaw goreng + mihun goreng basah, caramel + spagetti. besar kan tangki perut kami?

3.2 kata azim
'semua nak menunjukkan bakat memasak'. oke! itu beliau terasa. lalala~ tak pe la. bukan selalu nak bagi korg berlemak tepu sket. haha.

3.3 kata feyra
'orang dah hidang, kita makan la. jamah jugak!'. nie contoh makan tak ingat dunia. balik IPG lecturer tegur, 'u byk makan kueh raya ek? nmpk naik byk.' errK.. (-.-")

4.0 PENUTUP
kesimpulannya beliau kene diet.

5.0 REFLEKSI
beliau itu merujuk kpd yg menulis nie. lalala~ along achik ucu uncle aunty epul qeyla liey mbing & yg lelain, disini sy membuat pengakuan bahawasanya sy sgt gembira yg teramat dapat beraya bersama2 anda. balik rumah senyum sampai telinga. along, walaupun along sgt poyo wat drag kt rawang, tapi anda nmpk sgt jambu dihari raya itu. huhu. achik, lama tak jumpe & tak borak kan kan? setaun rasanya. byk gila nak cerita tapi last2 jumpa rasa mcm blank je. tataw nak cite apa. speechless bila jumpa achik. gembira punya pasal. huhu. ucu, u mmg sgt tak berubah. masih blur mcm dlu, masih suka gado2 mcm dulu, sengal mcm dulu jugak. huhu. gembira giler dapat jumpe ucu. bila lagi la kita nak lepak kat bukit kan kan? huhu. nama je kita duk dekat, satu KL jugak tapi nak jumpe mmg susah jugak kan kan? uncle & aunty, sy suka tgkp gambar anda berdua! hoho. tataw nape. lalala~ syg la aunty tak dpt raya umah alang. :( ha, lupe! ucu pun tak raya umah alang. majok cam nie ngn korg. :(

huhu. :P

~ ~

benti jap. encik lebah dah sengat kaki sy. termati selera nak tulis pepanjang. lagipun assignment yg real berlambak lagi tengah beratur nie.

6.0 LAMPIRAN

senarai penghargaan; along, achik, ucu, uncle, aunty rafiqa, epul, ehsan, cha'a, kambing, liey, Q, acim, paiz, azim & ella.

(^_^)

kami semua :) sekeping je boley tunjuk. uncle suh bayar dulu kalo nak tgk byk2. huhu. :P

Hidangan gambar :)

tengok lembu gua tempurung nie. kerek tahap gaban. Siap jelir lidah lagi tuh.

nyampah i, nyah! Siap ko lembu, aku wat korban nnti!

sikit besar punya signboard. kalo sesat jugak...haih tataw nak kata...

pengembaraan bermula di sini.. erkk.. mcm scary je dlm gambar..

merangkak. Lalala~ gelap sket. cahaya flash camera masuk air tak sampai.

(blom masuk air lagi time nie)

nie tak cukup curam lagi nie. ada lagi curam.. rasa mcm nak tergolek golek mcm ayam golek je bila naik tinggi2 meraban camgini..

kepala hati2. sekali terhantuk takut mati.. Lalala~

sikit punyer dalam air sungai gua. Sejuk air dia.. aaaeee.. *gigil*

gelungsur time!

Kamilah bebudak 4 orang tu. :)

Syafiq, zafirah, haris, arifah

ok! kempiskan perut! masuk itu lobang! wahaha..

Sekian sahaja hidangan gambar dari dlm perut gua tempurung.