Dear new semester

Tonight i feel something's bothering me.. I dont know why.. maybe because its the last day of my holiday.. i have to be in my college early because they needed some helping hands for the new semester.. Must be for hostel residential or maybe for preparation accepting our new juniors.. yeah.. minggu pengurusan pelajar baru or mostly known as orientation week.. 

Well, hope everything goes well for tomorrow and for the rest of the semester.

May i have some changes in attitude.

May new semester shaping a new Zafirah.

New is always better.

right, Barney Stinson?

ngeh3.. ;p

p/s: barney stinson said 'new is always better' in how i met your mother. i can't wait for the season 7 to be shown.

Kisah tak kesah

"Kalau orang tak call, dia pun tak call kan" 
Okeyh this was one of the dialog from my phone conversation with my mum yesterday.
So a day after (which is.. just now) i was thinking, i am definitely lack of concerned. Basically if i turned my life into english grammar, i always live in present tense. Damn! Everyone live in present. LOL. what i mean is i interact only with people around me. So its like i have many different separated life; my colleges life, home life, friends life, dream life (kidding) or wutsoever life. I dont know how to keep in touch with people whom i dont get to see right in front of my eyes for more than a month(?), year (?). That's why long-distance relationship might not work out for me i guess..

Bak kata wawa (my classmate, teammate, housemate aih banyak betul portfolio dia pegang), she said "hang bukan kesah orang pun". Yeah i careless about other people. i set one thing in mind, kau tak kacau aku, aku tak kacau kau. easy right? selfish? might be. What to do though. i tried to be more concerned about others, yet i failed. i'm afraid when i have students or kids or even when  my parents gets older, i'm afraid i forgot to care about them. i wanna change this attitude. its hard though. but i'll try again.

however, when i think deep enough. i do think sometimes this attitude can be useful. Borak2.
friend : Aku tak suka la budak bla bla bla tu.. 
me : aku pun tak suka gak. tapi asal dia tak kacau aku, aku tak kesah pasal dia. Lantak dia la.

I dont hold grunge because of this 'kesah tak kesah' attitude. but i do remember some. Ingat je la. tak de rasa dendam dah pun. Like masa kecik-kecik dulu dendam dengan my bro yang slalu membuli ku. Setiap pukulan dia ku catit dalam buku. ada la dalam 10 baris ku tulis. Hahaha! Jadi ku masuk taek wondo untuk belajar teknik teknik nak balas balik segala pukulan tu. Masuk je taek wondo ku lupa niat ku, pasang niat baru utk kurus dari latihan taek wondo tu. hahaha! Sengal bengong time kecik2 dulu. ;p

Lempang laju laju

Ada beberapa perkara yang buat ku rasa mcm nak lempang orang laju laju.

Pertama.
Bila orang dah lambat nak pergi kelas, orang lain jalan terkedek kedek naik tangga. kalau dia jalan tepi tepi sikit tak pe. Nie cover laluan seluas luas laluan tangga tu. Orang lain nak pintas pun tak boleh. Macam highway 2 lane naik bukit, ada 2 bus tgh bersaing nak naik bukit. Sabo je la. Yang ku heran, kelas masing masing semua start waktu sama, time ku dah lambat (everyday ;p ) boleh pulak mereka jalan seperti biasa. (-.-")

Kedua.
Bila naik train (applied to other than KTM) semua orang masuk berhenti berdiri kat tengah tengah tiang macam pole dance sikit tuh. Tolong la. Kalau tak dapat tempat duduk, at least masuk la kat bahagian perut perut train tu sikit. Kalau jd situasi tin sardin dalam train, ku kan meloloskan diri pergi kat part penyambung antara couch train. Tau tak yang mana? yang agak agak fleksible sikit tuh. Yang ku heran, orang tak berani duk berdiri situ. Relax la. Berdoa je la penyambung train tu tak putus. Part nak keluar payah sikit. Ku terpaksa rempuh orang macam main ragbi. oh. ter 18SG pulak.

Ketiga.
Bila cleaner baru je mop lantai, BARU je tak sampai satu minit, ada orang lain dengan suka hati nyer bersama rakan2 terus pijak/lalu kat tempat tu. Lagi rasa nak lempang laju laju orang orang tu bila dia berborak bergelak ketawa besar besar. Kadang kadang ku rasa kesian tengok cleaner tu. cleaner yg sinonim dgn wanita tua bekerja. Kalau ye pun nak lalu betul betul lepas dia mop, mintak la lalu sikit. Tak susah weyh ckp "tumpang lalu". at least penat penat dia mop tak kan menyumpah nyumpah tengok korang korang mengotorkan ia balik. Bukan apa ku meletakkan diriku dalam keadaan dia dan orang orang lain tu letakkan lah diri anda dalam keadaan cleaner tu. Apa rasa?

Keempat.
Bila ku tulis blog je rasa macam nak tido nie rasa macam nak lempang diri sendiri laju laju. =.="

Coca Cola Can Glass

I know the existence of this can glass from McD in newspaper after my friends discovered it.. Since then i was determined to get it. Because I planned to watch red riding hood with my friend, i took the chance to get one for myself. And to my surprised, it actually starts today..! HahAHha... Bangga ku membeli pada hari pertama ia dikeluarkan. HahHahhaha.. Beli coca cola glass meal harga rm14++ untuk dapatkan gelas nie. Lalala~ But if u bought it during lunch, it will be much cheaper than the usual price. I'm so damn happy i got this can glass.. cantiiikkkkk uolls!! Meh le kita kumpul byk2.. HuhuHu. but every colour has its own week.. 

Okeyh, see below to get your favourite colour:

Charcoal : 28 April 2011

Purple : 5 May 2011

Blue : 12 May 2011

Pink : 19 May 2011

Lime (Plg cantik) : 26 May 2011 

Green : 2 June 2011

So what are u waiting for? procrastination is the thief of time.. ehehhehe.. :P

JOm kumpul sma2 meh! :D

hatiku berkata-kata

*post ini adalah personal*

tadi ku terjaga. mimpi hantu. masa tu tgh bermain dgn kawan2. even time maghrib pun tak berhenti. moralnya: time maghrib berhenti main dan masuk rumah. tp elok jugak terjaga. terlelap sblm isyak. (-.-").......

sebelum terlelap ku ternampak photos terbaru dia. naik dekat homepage facebook. tak tau la nape tangan nie gatal pegi click. tgk la dari kepala album sampai kaki album photo tu. masa tgk gambar dia terkeluar pulak lagu gio "bila cinta" dari laptop member roomate. menangis hati! dah la kantoi dgn roomate tgk gambar dia. haih.. segan u olls.. feeling2 tgk gambar, mmg tak mcm zafirah. come on.. layan lagu jiwang karat mmg dorg tau, tapi bab2 ni dorg belum tau lagi.. tak pe lah. friends, see the other side of me.. the fragile inside..

lama ku tgk gambar dia, and i wonder.. did i have ever cross the person's mind like the person crossed mine..? i'm curious.. curiosity kills the cat. and it does killing me slowly inside.. dia nampak makin gembira, dengan orang baru. alhamdulillah.. its not that i miss the person, the person is still a friend and will remain as the same. nothing's gonna change that. *chuckle* sayang. sbb we used to be best buddy.

ku tak rindu dia sebagai diri dia yg sekarang. sbb tempat dia dah berubah, tiada lagi dihati, maaf. lama sgt dah perkara berlalu. bertahun tahun. tp kadang2 dia menjenguk ke fikiran. serabut. ku rindu dia yg dulu. i miss the feeling of 'us'. but when i miss 'us', all the pain is brought back. i handle the pain once. but the scars is still remain till now. DAMN right? yeah. jgn bagitau ala2 'bunga bukan sekuntum'. mmg. tapi hati ku satu je. dia curi dulu tak pulang2. entah balai polis mana mau cari. tak ingat pulak ada buat report atau tak. entah2 dah kene jual dekat thailand. *sigh*

pelik tiba2 feeling datang camgini. nyesal tak kira hari kat calender. but still, i blame the hormone!
gudnyte.. tomorrow, be nice please..