Kisah tak kesah

"Kalau orang tak call, dia pun tak call kan" 
Okeyh this was one of the dialog from my phone conversation with my mum yesterday.
So a day after (which is.. just now) i was thinking, i am definitely lack of concerned. Basically if i turned my life into english grammar, i always live in present tense. Damn! Everyone live in present. LOL. what i mean is i interact only with people around me. So its like i have many different separated life; my colleges life, home life, friends life, dream life (kidding) or wutsoever life. I dont know how to keep in touch with people whom i dont get to see right in front of my eyes for more than a month(?), year (?). That's why long-distance relationship might not work out for me i guess..

Bak kata wawa (my classmate, teammate, housemate aih banyak betul portfolio dia pegang), she said "hang bukan kesah orang pun". Yeah i careless about other people. i set one thing in mind, kau tak kacau aku, aku tak kacau kau. easy right? selfish? might be. What to do though. i tried to be more concerned about others, yet i failed. i'm afraid when i have students or kids or even when  my parents gets older, i'm afraid i forgot to care about them. i wanna change this attitude. its hard though. but i'll try again.

however, when i think deep enough. i do think sometimes this attitude can be useful. Borak2.
friend : Aku tak suka la budak bla bla bla tu.. 
me : aku pun tak suka gak. tapi asal dia tak kacau aku, aku tak kesah pasal dia. Lantak dia la.

I dont hold grunge because of this 'kesah tak kesah' attitude. but i do remember some. Ingat je la. tak de rasa dendam dah pun. Like masa kecik-kecik dulu dendam dengan my bro yang slalu membuli ku. Setiap pukulan dia ku catit dalam buku. ada la dalam 10 baris ku tulis. Hahaha! Jadi ku masuk taek wondo untuk belajar teknik teknik nak balas balik segala pukulan tu. Masuk je taek wondo ku lupa niat ku, pasang niat baru utk kurus dari latihan taek wondo tu. hahaha! Sengal bengong time kecik2 dulu. ;p